I'm writing from my desk in my little studio, sweaty and ready for a shower, as another week of house cleaning draws to a close. I love writing after cleaning. All day I've watched my mind spin in cycles, rinse and repeat. My mind is a busy one. I watch myself slip in and out of old patterns throughout these long days. One character keeps coming back- a ghost of my irish catholic upbringing. I call her - "The Slave." She's an irish washerwoman, blue collar and shallow breath. She's in a rush but she never seems to get anywhere (except for more anxious.) She's afraid that something terrible will happen / if she isn't perfect / no one will love her. She's a little bit manic and a little bit sad. She isn't particularly unusual, nor is she useful. I have compassion for her, as I gently usher her out the door. Its a dance I know well, as she seems to always come back, catching me off guard and charming her way back into my house. I work hard. She praises me as she pushes up my treadmill's speed and level of incline.
Lately the slave girl has been working hard. Over the last few weeks I've spent my spare time creating an online fundraising campaign. I made a promotional video for the Do Be Do EP- a lovely photographic journey set to the finished recording of my song, Maria. I created a long list of thoughtful and personal rewards for campaign donors, and wrote the story of my musical journey (where I've been- what I'm doing- and where I want to go.)
A couple nights ago I got home from cleaning and hopped straight on the computer. I was going to finish the campaign. I made dinner, worked more, fueled up on dark chocolate + almond & sea salt (my favorite manic writing session snack), and kept working. Around 10pm I sat back and viewed my ready-to-launch online campaign. As soon as I looked at the completed project I realized that I didn't actually want to launch the campaign. Simply put, it would be an large amount of busy work fulfilling the rewards in a timely manner (not to mention all the items currently awaiting attention on my to-do list). Most of my friends who run campaigns like that have "people" who help them fulfill their promises. I'm not playing at that level today. I feel like I dodged a major bullet, and learned an important lesson in trusting my intuition. I didn't want to run an online fundraising campaign, but I talked myself into it.
What do you want to do, Daisy?
I want to:
SHARE the beautiful music I've been blessed to make. The "Do Be Do EP" is spinning on repeat in my car. I love it. It keeps making me chuckle and tear up and feel all kinds of things. And I'm the only one who gets to listen to it right now. That doesn't seem fair. The songs are ready to go. I need to package, print, and promote my EP.
START A BAND of vibrant, heart-based, dedicated professional musicians, with shared values and musical aesthetic. I recently moved into an old dance studio full of mirrors. I'm stocked up on tea, coffee, snacks, and wine. I'm ready for my friends to come over and play. I desire to play with professionals, and to compensate them appropriately for the rehearsal time and performances. I am starting to slowly invest in sound equipment. Today I purchased an amazing vocal mic and stand. We will need to invest in a PA system, more mics, stands, cords, etc. I'm already turning down gigs because I don't have a PA to bring. . .
HIT THE ROAD- Momentum is building, as my music grows and evolves. I haven't yet released any music, started a band, and I mostly perform at farmers markets and Whole Foods stores. But I feel an energy building around my music that is powerful. I can see how the story goes. We will show up and shine bright at every show. Tours will start to line up and we'll manifest a touring vehicle. We will share our songs, voices, and love with many people across this country and world. We will live love, and be sustained by love. I know this is true, because I have many dear friends already walking this path. I feel myself preparing to gracefully join them.
My friend, Terri Hendrix, says "you've gotta own your own universe."
I'm doing it!
I believe in the work I am doing and I trust that the support will come.
If you're interested in joining Team Daisy, send me a message here or on facebook. I'd love to tell you more about what I'm working on.
Love,
Daisy
Lately the slave girl has been working hard. Over the last few weeks I've spent my spare time creating an online fundraising campaign. I made a promotional video for the Do Be Do EP- a lovely photographic journey set to the finished recording of my song, Maria. I created a long list of thoughtful and personal rewards for campaign donors, and wrote the story of my musical journey (where I've been- what I'm doing- and where I want to go.)
A couple nights ago I got home from cleaning and hopped straight on the computer. I was going to finish the campaign. I made dinner, worked more, fueled up on dark chocolate + almond & sea salt (my favorite manic writing session snack), and kept working. Around 10pm I sat back and viewed my ready-to-launch online campaign. As soon as I looked at the completed project I realized that I didn't actually want to launch the campaign. Simply put, it would be an large amount of busy work fulfilling the rewards in a timely manner (not to mention all the items currently awaiting attention on my to-do list). Most of my friends who run campaigns like that have "people" who help them fulfill their promises. I'm not playing at that level today. I feel like I dodged a major bullet, and learned an important lesson in trusting my intuition. I didn't want to run an online fundraising campaign, but I talked myself into it.
What do you want to do, Daisy?
I want to:
SHARE the beautiful music I've been blessed to make. The "Do Be Do EP" is spinning on repeat in my car. I love it. It keeps making me chuckle and tear up and feel all kinds of things. And I'm the only one who gets to listen to it right now. That doesn't seem fair. The songs are ready to go. I need to package, print, and promote my EP.
START A BAND of vibrant, heart-based, dedicated professional musicians, with shared values and musical aesthetic. I recently moved into an old dance studio full of mirrors. I'm stocked up on tea, coffee, snacks, and wine. I'm ready for my friends to come over and play. I desire to play with professionals, and to compensate them appropriately for the rehearsal time and performances. I am starting to slowly invest in sound equipment. Today I purchased an amazing vocal mic and stand. We will need to invest in a PA system, more mics, stands, cords, etc. I'm already turning down gigs because I don't have a PA to bring. . .
HIT THE ROAD- Momentum is building, as my music grows and evolves. I haven't yet released any music, started a band, and I mostly perform at farmers markets and Whole Foods stores. But I feel an energy building around my music that is powerful. I can see how the story goes. We will show up and shine bright at every show. Tours will start to line up and we'll manifest a touring vehicle. We will share our songs, voices, and love with many people across this country and world. We will live love, and be sustained by love. I know this is true, because I have many dear friends already walking this path. I feel myself preparing to gracefully join them.
My friend, Terri Hendrix, says "you've gotta own your own universe."
I'm doing it!
I believe in the work I am doing and I trust that the support will come.
If you're interested in joining Team Daisy, send me a message here or on facebook. I'd love to tell you more about what I'm working on.
Love,
Daisy